I'm all psyched up for HongKong.
Technically, it's the only holiday since university started,
I'm glad for this much awaited get away.

We kind of had our Pre-HongKong meet up yesterday,
quality time spent with one of the best people I could possibly ask for.

Started our day at Chinatown.
If you were wondering, the exchange rates at Chinatown are a lot better than the usual ones you see in shopping centres.
Lunch at Maxwell market,
the variety is so huge, I'm always left spoilt for choice.
Settled for my usual Hainanese Curry Rice in the end,
and my 6 for 1$ Han Chee Peng!
Pity LaoBan TauHuey was closed though.

Headed down to Tiong Bahru Bakery later for some tea and bridge.
The Chocolate Chip Brioche is possibly one of the best I've ever tasted so you must try them if you're intending to go down there.
And I had my usual flat white coffee. (as influenced by the brother)

Bussed to HollandV for dinner and desserts.
I really like CoffeeBean yogurt a lot,
possibly the only thing I order whenever I study there.
Heart talks with Lynnie and Bao to pass the night.

And finally to Marina Barrage for even more heart talks.
I'm so sorry for always leading Bao to the wrong place whenever we drive,
we went all the way to Yio Chu Kang and Braddell before reaching finally Marina Barrage.
):

Okay this sounded like some food post and me being piggish for the entire day.
Calories aside, it was good.
(:

For all you troubled hearts out there:
"For our present troubles are small and won't last very long. Yet they produce for us a glory tht vastly outweighs them and will last forever. So we don't look at the troubles we can see now; rather, we fix our gaze on thing that cannot be seen. For the things we see now will soon be gone, but the things we cannot see will last forever." 2 Corinthians 4:17-18

Don't get me wrong,
I'm actually rather pleased with my life right now.
(:

Miss my little ones at Children Ministry though,
I learn so much from them.

Help me live a life that is consistent for You God,
because I'm sick and tired of these spiritual highs and lows.

How much better must I be before I can be the best that I can be?


Sometimes I wish I was less sensitive, petty, stubborn, condescending and selfish.
Maybe that would make me a whole lot better person,
but is it only human nature?

But at times, I really just don't care how people look at me,
I just want to be me.
And I'm happy being the way I am.

And just as I always live by the motto that nobody is indispensable to me,
neither do expect to be indispensable to anyone.
That is the way the world works,
isn't it?

But why does it always feel like my good isn't good enough.
I need a bigger heart to love.
Rather I need to be less prideful.

The pain from the ulcer is giving me a head pain.
):

Wasn't the best day.
My phone battery was flat the entire day.
Went all the way to UPPER CHANGI ROAD which is at like some God-forsaken part of Singapore,
only to have my respondent cancel on me for the survey.
):

I love the East but it's not cool when it comes to travelling there for work.
Sighh.

Just woke up from my sixteen hour nap and it was wonderful.

YM leaders' retreat in JB cum God's People partial retreat was good,
awesome time spend with awesome people.

Life has been good except for the fact that I have an ulcer that feels like the size of a fifty cent coin on the wall of my cheek,
super painful.
):
Other than that,
HongKong with my homies this Saturday.
I can't wait!!!

I almost forgot what's it like to have nothing to do at all.
It was a wonderful day.

Salad came over my place to nua a bit and plan the itinerary for Hongkong trip.
Lunch at Brickworks and we had some coffee at Forty Hands later.
Yogurt for dinner at Sogurt because Yaanmeng and I visited Yiling at work.
(:

Did an annoying survey at Bukit Batok,
and drove home.

And I think I'm gonna sleep right now because I've got an another annoying survey at 9am tomorrow at Potong Pasir.
):
Long day tomorrow.
Good night dear friends.

First time sleeping before 12am in the longest time.
Was at Mock Law School over the weekend.
It was alright,
thankfully I had my dearest Graccieee with me.

I actually don't know what else to talk about except for the fact that I've been extremely sleep deprived,
think 3 hours of sleep everyday.

As much as I can't wait to go HongKong,
I'm really not looking forward to time passing by so quickly.

It's so difficult to be nice these days.
The next time I say yes, please remind me to say no.
I've had just about enough of being so accommodating.

Ohyes, and I almost forgot the other addition to the family.
Tefal Prepline handmixer,
a birthday present I got for the brother as well.
Heehee I foresee more baking nights in the near future
(:

The brother just bought an espresso machine.
Woohoo quality coffee to get me through the studying nights,
so excited.

First up, getting used to drinking coffee.
My heart beats damn fast whenever I drink caffeine and it makes me get damn emotional.
Sighh.

Look at this, isn't it such a beauty? (:

Madagascar 3 with Yiling, Yaanmeng and Zijie this evening.
Beautiful cartoon, I liked it very much.
(:

It was a lazy and quick weekend,
though I don't quite know how those two fall squarely into a sentence.

Had dinner at Irodori Japanese Restaurant, situated nicely at Riverview Hotel with Zijie on Saturday.
The ala carte buffet was pretty decent,
though I thought that the selection of food could have been better considering the price.
Took a stroll along Robertson Quay after and then to Tiong Bahru for some coffee.

Headed to Zijie's after with Yaanmeng to catch the soccer match,
that I personally did not have the faintest idea about.

Lunch at Tiong Bahru Market after church.
Ate my favouritest Shark Shank Lor Mee which I haven't had in the longest time.
Spent the laziest Sunday afternoon at Yaanmeng's nua-ing because Jul's had to take pictures for her blogshop.

Busy week ahead and I think I'm falling ill.
):

Unending Love,
Amazing Grace.

As I was doing quiet time tonight,
this verse spoke to me.
I have fought the good fight, I have finished the race, I have kept the faith.
2 Timothy 4:7

As always, the first thing that came to my mind was Law School,
because it was and is the only thing that troubles me so much.

The question that came to my mind immediately was, what does it mean to have fought a good fight?
Is fighting a good fight giving your best?
What gives you the ability and strength to fight a good fight?
Is it confidence?
Is fighting a good fight but losing still fighting a good fight?
Is fighting a good fight determinant on victory?
Or can even failures can be a result of a good fight?
Honestly, I'm not sure of the answers myself.

I haven't quite shared this before but deep down inside,
I still have that fear,
of school in itself.
I don't get it,
why I don't get the confidence.
I don't get why I've found my place yet not quite in this school.
And you know every other day I think about graduation,
and I'm scared.
I really am, of not making it.
And sometimes I feel so ashamed because I said I've trusted,
but having this fear in itself isn't quite trusting.
):
Will I really finish this race?
What really is finishing this race actually?
Will I ever dispel all my fears?

And the last part of the verse speaks about keeping the faith.
So the question that arises is,
what does it mean to keep the faith?
In knowing that God is sovereign and in control of everything and that everything is going to be alright in the end?
What even is alright?
Or to keep on trusting even in failures and all the insecurities?
And I think this part of the verse is slightly easier and puts things into perspective.
Because it is in keeping the faith that a good fight is fought,
and it is in keeping the faith that the race is finished.
And keeping the faith in essence is really about trusting and believing that God will work for the good of those who love Him in spite of all the adversities life might throw us,
and in knowing that where we are empty,
He will fill us up.
And essentially not relying in our own strengths,
but really in Christ alone.

At the end of these four years,
will I be able to say that I have fought the good fight, I have finished the race, I have kept the faith?

Yesterday was one of the better days in history because the littlest brother won 1st in the Hong Kong Open Masters Competition for his Graded B category.

So proud of him.

(:

New Milo poster boy in the house ~~ heehee.

Also, Qabir got 1st and Best Oralist for Howard Hunter moots and I'm so happy for him too.

(:

Lastly, it was the oldest brother's birthday too.

So it was like triple happiness.

Spent the earlier half of the day with Melissa and Jumana,

funny how we three are studying at three different parts of the world right now.

Tea at Tiong Bahru Bakery with Bao and Salad later.

I love the Chocolate Chip Brioche there,

it's so good!!

Paul serves better croissants though. 

And it was nice enough spending my evening at the moots with Glenn and Bao.

Yay, I love old friends,

they make me feel the warmest.

(':

It's been a wonderful week,
particularly a wonderful night.

Time spent with my bestest in the small group always make me the happiest.
(:
I don't want next year to come cos you both would be gone.
):
So we baked Lemon cupcakes tonight,
and err.. Chocolate Almond Cookies (in Charlene's positive terms, it's really just failed Chocolate Macarons haha)

Always the 3 musketeers. 

Love you all too much (':

My super bestest <3

Happy birthday Jon!!
Thanks for being the BESTEST oldest brother any little sister could ever ask for.
(':
Loveyou the most.
xx

Just when I decided to get down to some scrapbooking,
I couldn't find my paper.
Ugh, moments like this.

Lazy Sunday afternoon with Yiling and Yaanmeng,
couldn't find a better way to spend it.
My Sunday bests.
(:
Accumulating all the quality time to spend before you guys go overseas to study.
):
The only thing missing to sipping a good cup of coffee on a Sunday afternoon besides good company is a wonderful weather.
It is too hot, period.

As influenced by the older brother,
Forty hands really serve the best coffee in Singapore.

I still don't get it,
why does the thought of school starting keep crawling at the back of my mind?

I think it's about time I learnt how to say no to people because saying yes always gets me into shit or make me feel so miserable.
Note to self:
Stop being so accommodating.

I cannot stress enough how much I need to tour Europe so badly,
back packing, anything.
Anyone?

I need money,
I need to travel.
I need to get out of this country,
and the last thing I'll be needing is for summer to be over.

Why do I still cringe at the thought of school starting?